Food addiction explained

My thoughts today are this:

After listening to a podcast from the Caltons (rich food poor food), I have decided that I am not addicted to food.  I am addicted to what's in it.  Sure, there is a psychological component, but it is no different than the cigarettes that have god knows how many chemicals in it.  That is why I feel that the whole 30 is going to be so important.  I am committing to pharmacological management initially - chantix and thyrogold.  I feel that these will be helpful.  I do feel that the trigger last time was the chicken seasoned with only god knows what.  So from here on out, I must only consume meats cooked at home.  I will grill them and season them only with real seasonings.  I will buy only uncured meats, and I am going to try to buy grassfed when I run out of what I have.

I do expect to have some withdrawals.  I proved that last time; however, I am unsure if it was the chicken.  I do believe that it was seasoned with something I was sensitive to.  I must be very careful.  For now, I am only going to have one fruit per day and it will be berries with breakfast.

It officially starts in 2 days.

What I have learned form binge eating

I just ate a whole cheesecake.  Well, I guess you are wondering how in the **** can I say that I am defeating binge eating when I just inhaled an entire cheesecake?  Well, I will be the first to say that your doubts are justified; however, each binge has taught me something valuable that I can apply to future circumstances.  I am unfortunate that I have put my faith into one diet plan after another.  The money I have spent on diet books and such is just unreal.  For now, this is just my journal, but I want to share what I have learn as I defeat this.

Since you are reading this, I assume you have some sort of deranged eating habits, or else you would have no interest in my journal.  Yes, my journal is to track my progress and help myself, but ultimately, I want to share what I have learned to help you.  Although I am not out yet, I have learned many things already.  I feel well equipped to make this journey now.  Will I screw up again?  Maybe... but I am not going to worry about that right now.

I don't want to bore you with how this all got started right now.  I have a great story that many of you can probably see in yourselves.  I promise I will share it!  For now, I have to be selfish and think about what is going to help me today.  I would expect no less from you :-)  So, I have to look at why I binge now.

I have many triggers.  Some of which I have eliminated, but let's face it - you can't eliminate all triggers so don't bother.  It is important to know what they are so that you can be prepared for them.  My two biggest triggers are fatigue and anxiety.  It is kind of ironic because I know that once my diet is clean then both of those should be gone anyway.  So how will I deal with them now?

Fatigue - I will sleep.  It is the only real way to relieve fatigue.  To prevent fatigue, I am going to take it easy in the gym until I get the natural energy from my diet being clean.  I am going to darken the house at 8 pm and be in the bed by 9.

Kids getting on my nerves - quiet time after 8.  Hopefully darkening the house will help with this.  The weather is getting warmer so they will be able to play outside more.

Sometimes, I just want food.  While I do realize that this has a psychological and biochemical component, I am just going to have to suck it up.  I will have to find something else to do to distract myself.

My plan is do a Whole 30.  If you are not familiar with this, I highly recommend the book, "It Starts With Food."  Also check out the Whole 30 website, http://www.whole9life.com.  I know this is my way out of this hell.  I plan on starting on April 8, 2013.